FILE DATE: November 20, 2023 | STATUS: LOGGED
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Source Link: Watch on YouTube Channel: Zugzug Zugzugson
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So, before anyone gets to part 2, let me just spoil a few things for you: this is going to get ugly. What you are about to witness is someone who, for once, puts aside the troll character in order to ACTUALLY try to help someone, and just as expected this retard proves he doesn’t the deserve the spit under my boot let alone the boot of anyone else. This man cannot be helped. He belongs in a straight jacket. I Will give everything i own to the therapist who manages to get through this dense motherfucker.
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**[00:12]** just hurts some days trying not to do drugs you know but I don't think I can do it because the drugs is the only thing that's keeping me from this feeling like I feel I feel only feel disconnected feel sad I feel hopeless this [__] called me three times and now I'm calling him back he's not replying come on come on kittying just depression feelings what the [__] I feel this feel this because well I don't
**[01:38]** know relations aren't very meaningful my own so why do you never stop with the [__] hello what's going on why do you never stop with the [__] what what have I done this [Music] time hello I ask your a question why do I never stop with the [__] I mean that's a multifaceted question which part of the [__] do you refer to specifically all I mean I haven't really been doing any trolling lately uh not since
**[02:49]** the other day in the grace Discord so I'm not sure what you mean that's true that's true that is true did take I got to give you that one that much so what you're saying is that you are you considering being done or I don't know it depends are you going to unban me from your kick chat yeah I might ask what I'm considering right now but I want to hear how far I see you called
**[03:22]** me three times today uh within an hour and then I checked your stream and you're kind of mopang what's going on I don't know just feel kind of down if you run out of weed because that's usually you know the reason you're feeling down well I do feel down yeah but I'm asking is it because you don't have any more weed or did something happen no no no well I don't I don't know it's uh I
**[04:01]** don't know you just feeling a little down in the dumps but wait let me try and identify this feeling properly cuz I know how I feel I just um by the by the way like it could be an issue to unban me from your kick chat because like all my accounts are banned and I cannot make any new ones can you see what emails are attached no but I I can't un vend them obviously just I
**[04:30]** just need to talk with you first yeah okay that's a deal look uh I don't even remember like what accounts are mine in there like I I figure your ban list is pretty long right yeah it's okay now and I'm not sure which one can still access kick because um they've all well proton has completely shot me out which is where you got my burn emails and my other accounts well I don't really remember their account
**[05:02]** names I remember Maria of St kyburg but uh not sure which email that one is linked to yeah man how you get yourself into so much I mean it is what it is yeah well unb you but let me let me see if I can identify this feeling for I mean I'm open to questions man like uh what do you want to know no cuz you asked a good question why is that feeling is it because
**[05:38]** of so and so or is it and in a way it's it's not why is that feeling let me think about it the feeling is there because I mean may may I make a suggestion yeah yeah sure it's because I think it's because you're out of weed right and that because that usually gets get you super depressed have you ever considered just trying to stop with the weed like for real I'm not out of anything so
**[06:11]** you still have weed dude I'm dude I'm not I'm not trying to like joke around here like this this can be a legit depressive uh like effect when you run out of weed you get depressed because that used to happen to me cuz I used to smoke weed was many years ago go by now though so I know how it is when you don't have anymore doesn't that make sense it does make sense right how many
**[06:44]** years have you been smoking now not long not long K Kitty I've known you for the bit part of six years you've been smoking no uh did you want to get unbanned or what like see you're saying a lot of things and you it's like you don't understand what it is that I don't want I'm just trying to help man you you you called me because you're depressed right I'm trying to get to the root of
**[07:15]** your depression and I think it has to do with the weed like no offense if you're if you're not willing to listen to advice then I can't really help you man well you can think a lot of things but that doesn't mean that it necessarily is that way all right so you're saying I'm wrong I'm saying that you might be part I don't know like you might have some sense to that but I don't think it's
**[07:54]** like that why is your why is your stream uh all blacked out I don't feel like it I mean I saw you yesterday you were pretty cheery and happy like what happened since then I haven't even done anything did did some other troll get to you yeah who what did they do whatever what whatever I don't know I just feel like life is a series of events I feel like life is just I don't think it's
**[08:34]** the drugs the drugs is the drugs is just a solution to something no is the my honest opinion right it's not it feels like it but it's the temporary high like the the high you get it gives you some dopamine right cuz you get the like what's it called you get the THC and that kind of helps with the with the mood but once it goes away like you know how drugs work Kitty I'm sorry potato
**[09:05]** you know how they work I mean when I used to drink and smoke all the time I was depressed as [__] as well but now I'm you know my only Vice now is cigarettes and uh when I don't have any more cigarettes obviously it affects my mood as well so my my actual would be to like you don't seem to have problems with uh drinking right like you're not an alcoholic is what I'm asking oh my
**[09:42]** God he left the call Jesus what the [__] well I don't know what I expected hello I'm back hello yeah do people ever tell you that you're annoying yeah all the time all right okay have you ever thought about changing that aspect of yourself you mean my attitude being annoying I mean you just disconnected while I was in the process of giving you actual good advice I don't know what what your what Your like motive here
**[10:22]** is because you're annoying sometimes it just makes me want to just walk away make me just want okay sir that's why so if you want to know it's because you're an knowing and I have to just take a timeout all right I guess so why why look I don't get it why do you call me if you think I'm annoying I'm trying to resolve the people and the assets that I have look I can't help what
**[10:52]** other people do I haven't been doing a lot of trolling since the other day like that's all I have control over I know but that's why I'm just ask I'm asking you right and it turns out you know that you're annoying so that's why I'm like if you know it why have you never changed it or have you never taken a look at those aspects and said why am I annoying do I want to be annoying
**[11:12]** I know it's it's kind of rare when I get that uh like not everyone is telling me I'm annoying I occasionally get told yeah sure but not all the time oh yeah okay but anyways regarding your the feeling it's uh you're I think you're right about the dopamine but I don't think um so I don't get any dopamine to begin with I think like I don't know it's it seems to spike up and down with you
**[11:43]** sir I mean I notice when you're happy and when you're sad it's like several times a day absolutely but that's the thing is that I can't regulate it on my own it seems like like I can't regulate it without drugs like I don't know how the [__] I'm like cuz I'm just not may I ask you a question are you on are you on any drugs besides weed I'm not on any drugs whatsoever then don't mind
**[12:17]** me saying but I think the weed is the root cause cuz uh like I said earlier when when when a weed smoker has no more weed it affects their mood like big time yeah but you're not but you're you're not understanding the situation then because that's that's your well I'm I'm it's look it comes down to the feeling of feel having a life that doesn't make sense right it comes to that I don't have any natural
**[12:51]** dopamine things like I just I don't have people around me that I I don't know I just don't have a fulfilling life I don't get any dopamine my life is I'm I'm dying I'm dying every day that's it I don't think that's the case excuse me like you actually have a pretty C life all things considered there are people out there with way worse uh life conditions like homeless people for example my life isn't that great
**[13:24]** either but I mean I get but if that's a if that's if that's a if that's a criteria is that your life is a little bit better than people that have it really bad then that's not really that's like the opposite of the grass is greener it's like well it's it's at least it's not really terrible at least you still have one arm at least you can still hear even though you got blind at least you
**[13:49]** I mean you can still eat even though you lost your legs right it's like kind of like that yeah I mean you kind of have to settle with what you I'm I'm notos I can't I don't get Happy from that that doesn't make me happy that you tell me this that's why I'm unhappy what am I what am I supposed to do here I don't know just letting just no no I I didn't ask you to
**[14:18]** I'm just I'm letting you know that I'm unhappy and it's not because of drugs it's because I don't have a happy life I don't have a I don't like the life I don't like my surroundings I like you are you actually ready to get to the bottom of this issue because I'm I want to say some things and I know it's going to piss you off like and and I think it's going to piss you off
**[14:42]** because you know it's true okay may I say it no okay then I can't help you if if it if it if it pisses me off it's because you're wrong okay I the way I see it right okay no no no no it's not because it's not the way that you see it how do you what do you see is the problem then the way that it is is that if you don't if you don't understand
**[15:07]** me and you don't understand what I'm thinking what I'm feeling what I'm and you give an advice and I get angry it's because you got it wrong and if you keep pushing it it's because you're getting it more and more wrong it's look sometimes to get a different perspective like that's one of your is you don't know me I don't I do know don't know me I do know you no you don't you're a stranger to
**[15:34]** me we've never met that doesn't mean I don't know you I know a lot of people online that I've never met before but I know how they are and like I know their person you we've never been friends we've never been friends so you don't know me and and yet here I am actually trying to give you some advice what does that say about me that you're a fool I'm a Fool that's what it says yeah
**[15:55]** you're a fool because you know what I'll take I'll let SL if if you don't know me and you've never been a friend to me that's that's an indicator of something do I have to like do I have to have seen you do I have to have met you in real life to know what kind of person you are if you won't seen me on screen you don't my guarantee is you don't know who I am
**[16:18]** what's the difference between you on stream and off stream like give me an example not a big not a big difference but if you only see you know me to some extent you know what character I play you're not playing a character that's just you sir I'm playing a character I'm out of character right now you should you should thank your lucky stars for that I could be so mean to you but I'm actually like I
**[16:43]** am actually being nice right now and you are just so unappreciative of it it makes me sick sometimes okay are you ready to listen to what I have to say or not no because I don't want to hear it you're wrong you're a friend of mine see that's your problem Everyone is always wrong right yeah yeah have you considered maybe it's cuz you are I'm not I'm not the only one who will tell you this I
**[17:07]** think number one your problem is streaming that's a problem number two the we that's problem yeah exactly you see you're not you're just not willing to listen this guy I'm [__] done man Jesus Christ